...And for once, I am listening.
I have been wanting to post about this for some time, only the words and the time never seem to coincide with my plans. I wanted to make this a well thought out piece because it deserves that kind of attention, and yet, my life requires me to live in the now, so I don't have that luxury.... but irony's good too, no?
First I want to tell a story about a friend of mine, who I have only known a little over a year, and never met in person. I always believed that our paths were meant to cross, now in hind-sight, I know it. Like many of us, we met on the internet. Her name is Jenny, and she has helped me to change my life in such a profound way, I can't imagine my life without her in it anymore. While I know there are millions of stories out there about this kind of phenomenon, this one is mine
The most incredible part of it, well, besides all of it...is that we met in a very bizarre, happenstance manner. Or was it? The way we met was through this short little post: Dexter Mania that I almost DID NOT write back in July of last year. The post was not even two paragraphs long, and if I had not posted it, I may never have crossed paths with Jenny, which I can't even fathom. How strange the universe is? I mean, (For those of you who are not acquainted with the Showtime series Dexter, it's about the life of a serial killer). Much of it happens in the first person wherein you get to hear Dexter's thoughts as the story unfolds. I think that this was a big part of our mutual fascination with the show... that, and it is extremely well done.
So, Jenny comments on this post, and she invites me to her blog about.... Dexter! (Which I still go back and read now and then, it's that good!) We are both fascinated with human behavior and the mind, and we both find it important to consciously strive at furthering our respective personal evolutionary processes. Neither of us likes or condones violence... much, and yet we are both rather obsessed with this show about a serial killer! Maybe this is not as strange to anyone else, as it is to me, or as unlikely anyway.
After visiting her blog, and her visiting mine, we became pen pals. I knew by the way she expressed herself in words so beautifully and purposefully, (which by extension is the way her mind works also) that she was extraordinary. Then we began skyping and sending photos and etc and really getting to know one another. During this time is when she re-introduced me to the idea of Life Coaching, among other things. We talked and talked and wrote and wrote. She was so intuitive and supportive of my interest in Life Coaching that I finally was able to break through the brick wall, which is my head, to see Life Coaching as reality for me. I began to relax and loosen. I began to give myself permission to change and to grow and to do something I wanted. Nobody else. No matter how uncomfortable it was for me or anyone else, I knew it was what I wanted. I knew I could be good at it, and then I saw it. I saw myself being very very good at it. (futuristically speaking.) The potential is there, and although nobody in my family would likely ever approve of it, I was going to do this. Which, at 47, should not be such a big deal I suppose, and yet, it was. Jenny helped me figure that one out too! (Thank you J.)
I talked my hub into heaping yet MORE debt on our already hefty credit card balances so that I could get certified. This was not as hard as I thought it would be considering. He could see I was committed to it, and at this point, another thousand clams or so wasn't going to keep us from bankruptcy, if that was our destiny... That is what we came to anyway. So, I did it, I got my paper and I was FREE!! Free to get my business license that is. And so I did that. And all through out this process I was being supported by both Marc and Jenny. They kept me sane, kept me moving and even volunteered to be Guinea pigs for my coaching homework assignments... All along the way the universe has been whispering, and doors have been opening. Things that I thought would be so hard, were not nearly as hard in practice, as they were in my head. And it continues at my own pace....
I originally wanted to begin my business asap.,as in this summer. However, Harley is still on summer break, so I decided to wait... As serendipity would have it, without really even trying, I got my very first professional gig about a week ago~ It was scheduled (not by me!) for Sept 1st, right after school starts! AND then.... in the interim, the hub gets a great new job, so the urgency to begin was lifted right around the same time anyway.... Perfect!
The Universe is still speaking, and I am perched on the edge of my chair!
...To be continued.