Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Too many things

I've known for years that I should carry around a tape recorder.  Just a little one that I can use to record my thoughts and  ideas as they occur to me.  I did for a few days once, but I'm short on discipline and probably a little insane. (You know, "doing the same behaviors and expecting a different result" thing.) I  get all these feelings and thoughts about all manner of topics, I'd like to express or speak out about or muse about or rant about or simply share or get feedback about... but it seems that life just travels too quickly for me.

I'm an oddball.  A late in life child, my mind caught between nostalgia and cultural/familial closeness of years gone by, juxtaposed with the surrealism and insane pace of living now. A gypsy trapped in suburbia.  That is the best way I can describe it.

I do get these fabulous ideas for projects and social evolution... acorns of wisdom whiz at me from the Oaks, konking me in the head, or through the silver thread of dreams or when I'm driving or listening to my son prattle about something.  Times when there is no pen or paper at hand.  And so, I forget.  This is nothing new.  My kind have been doing this since we wore bones in our hair, that doesn't make it any less frustrating.

Well, the same goes for my posting.  I have a laundry list of subjects, events, anecdotes, adventures, happenings, ideas, etc... that I've wanted to post about.  Only, at the end of the day, I'm tired, and/or I've forgotten, or I'm sick or I realize I haven't actually spoken more than 3 words to my own husband in days.... and then it gets pushed back near the bottom of the list again.  Then, time goes on, more stuff occurs that I want to write about, but when I find the time, I'm too clogged up with thoughts to flush anything out.  My brain shuts down and, more frustration.

So, this post is a list about what I want to post about.  If there is anything that appeals to you, please leave a note in the comments and I will get to those first. By writing things down, I will not forget.  By not having to choose now, I buy myself some more time.  By getting feedback, I get more fun out of it and hopefully you get to hear about what you prefer.  Win - win?

Ok, here's my list:
  • Harleyisms
  • Visitation from my brother's ghost
  • Child mental health scare
  • Getting my business going  AKA Getting out of my way

---LIST TIME OUT.... See, now I'm going blank again..  This is so UN-FAIR!!

     -----LIST RESUMED-----

  • Gospel according to Judas
  • Gospel according to Mary (Magdelene)
  • Joseph Campbell, Ram Dass and Carl Jung
  • Funky dreams about the center.
  • Prayer mantraing and prayerful meditation
  • What's up with all the dead Fox and Owls?
  • The Great Turtle Rescue!
  • Garage Sale Madness

There are more, but this is it for now.  Please let me know if any of these appeal more than the others.
Cheers..... and thanks for all the fish.


JoJo said...

Girlfriend, the more i get to know you, the more I think of you as a kindred spirit. I could EASILY have written this exact post. I have the same thing going on. I find myself drafting the most amazingly witty blog posts in my head as I'm dropping off to sleep, and in the morning, I'm like, 'what was that again? Crap, I forget, I shoulda gotten up and written it down.' And I am also a late in life child too.

I would like to hear about every single thing you listed. Seriously. But start with the visit from your brother's ghost! And it's been a long time since we've had a Harleyism too.


JoJo said...

PS Met Ram Dass at a benefit in San Francisco in 1990; that was when we met Jerry Garcia and Bob Weir.

Ms. Moon said...

Just pick a topic. And then go on to the next when you are done with that one. Hey! Did you notice your sasanqua has begun to bloom? It is so beautiful. I will be stealing flowers. Just warning you.

Petit fleur said...

Jojo... I KNOW!!!! It's insane! We have to meet each other for real someday. Maybe when we move out there.

Thanks for the suggestions, and have you ever written about the Meeting Jerry and Ram Dass? I'd like to hear those stories.
Peace sister,

Petit fleur said...

Ms Moon,

Embarrassingly enough, I do not know what a Sasanqua is, and I did not realize it blooming. Of course you take as much as you want of anything in my yard.

If I could just pick one topic, I wouldn't buy myself the extra time I need to sort of clear my head. Thanks though. I like your direct approach.

Steph(anie) said...

I agree with JoJo about your brother's ghost and the list as a whole... and add the turtle rescue :)

Petit fleur said...

Thanks for peeking in Steph and I guess I gotta write about the ghost.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Since it's nearly Halloween, I want to hear the visitation by your brother's ghost story.

Love you, PF.

white rabbit said...

You little tease, you! You've got me intrigued now. Just do the lot in any order...

Maybe get a 'commonplace book' (don't ask me why they're called that) - a little notebook to jot down random thoughts, phrases and idea as they come to mind for later use.

Maggie May said...

i'm always interested to read the personal, so that would be visit from brother's dead ghost, child mental health scare, maybe garage sale and prayers...

Terresa said...

Love that you consider yourself a gypsy trapped in suburbia. :)

I'm curious to hear more about visits from your brother's ghost, especially since it's Halloween this week!

Petit fleur said...

Thanks SB, it looks like the ghost story is winning. I actually did want to post about it right after it happened as I did have need to flush it out, but I wrote an email to my fam about it instead.

xo pf

Dear Rabbit,
You're funny. I haven't been called that since high shcool.

I do have notebooks (great suggestion) I just am not very disciplined in using them... and sometimes I can't because I'm driving.
Have a great day!


Thanks for stopping. I'll definitely do my bro's story first.

I'm glad you like my twisted words!