Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Owed to joy

This was going to be a "that was then, this is now" photo post of Harley and how much he's grown since I blinked my eyes... but alas, our photos files are too large to upload and I have to fix em, and since I'm a little fuzzy on that, it will have to wait... but I'm not agitated... not today.

THIS post is announcing my newest mission in life: Consciously seeking joy.  Not chasing it, just staying open to recognizing and experiencing it whenever and where ever possible.

I made a startling discovery about 4 and a half years ago, at the ripe old age of 42.  I discovered that I had not truly felt or experienced true joy since sometime in my childhood.  In fact I was so shut off to it, that it seemed to me, like anyone who appeared to be experiencing it was either mental or faking it... or, of course a child.  Pretty sad.  BUT... The good news is that I finally woke up!  I know that it really does exist and I've felt nostalgic waves of it since Harley's birth.

Now, I am trying to keep my eyes out for other truly joyful moments and experiences.  And I'm staying aware of that fact.  I'll let you know how it goes.

May we all be bathed in joy!  ...      PS This last photo is for you SB.  :-P


Rebecca said...

I've never seen a cat look so disgruntled.

May you find your joy and hold on to it every single day!

Petit fleur said...

Hey Rebecca!

Great word for our furry friend.. definitely disgruntled!

Thanks for your joyful wishes. I'm doing my best.


JoJo said...

OK now I have Beethoven's "Ode to Joy" stuck in my head! Good for you for seeking out the joyful things in life. I used to feel that pure joy every time I went to a Grateful Dead show. How I miss those times. No matter how bummed out we were, we always had a show to look forward to.

Ms. Moon said...

I can't get up enough energy to feel anything remotely resembling joy in this heat. So- you're amazing!

Petit fleur said...

Jojo, yea, nothing like Grateful Dead joy! :-)

Ms Moon, Well, I don't spend much time outside when it's this hot... Heat index of 105+ DANG!

Terresa said...

Consciously seeking joy, I love that.

I found you via Maggie's Flux blog. Glad I did, your post was a reminded I needed. Seek joy in every, every thing.

Petit fleur said...

Hey Terresa!

Welcome to my cyber home.

I'm pretty sure I've seen your photo in the comments at Maggie's because you look familiar. I love your hair!

Thanks for stopping in and please come back.

white rabbit said...

Like JoJo I've got Ode to Joy in my head. No choice but to put it up on WR!

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white rabbit said...

Pardonnez Moi! I doubled.

Petit fleur said...

WR... You doubled!!! That reminds me of the Seinfeld episode about double dipping chips... That was a good one!

I'll come check out the Beethoven.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Thanks, PF! I love it!!

That's probably why I dig cats. They are not happy creatures overall. Laugh.

Jen said...

Your last two posts have had very powerful declarations of what you are committing to in your life. GOOD FOR YOU! Very powerful...I'm going to be your copycat!

Petit fleur said...

Thanks Jenny!